last summer caught me by surprise. after coming through a busy season that was followed by a time of serious exam preparation, i was ready to see bermuda a little bit. so i made some great friends and proceeded to fall in love with this island. everything was new. each restaurant, each golf course, each beach, each bermuda tradition, each everything - all new. i think novelty gives life a feeling of specialness. maybe thats why people now days refuse to live traditional life styles. its easier to never settle down. things are way more exciting when you can dump one city and go find a different one that is new and exciting. anyway, last summer was magic.
now we get to this year, when the novelty of a number of things has worn off. life has become much more real. its hard because there is something in me that wants that feeling of last year, but i know to seek after it would be a mistake. instead of a chasing after a feeling, it is now time for things to start having a purpose. its time to spread myself less thin. its time to invest more in people, in the community, and in myself.
i think the first thing to focus on is myself. ive lost many of the passions that used to be a part of me. as a result i feel like i stand for less now than i ever have. honestly i think that this is good, because it gives me a clean slate to start from. i get to rebuild without certain bias.
and i have lots more thoughts on this, but im too lazy to finish for now.
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