work

i'm being completely walked over by a number of parties at work.  people are sending pretty much no respect my way, when i know that i'm good at my job.  it coming from both within my company and without.

and it's been getting me down.  its been invading my sleep. my dreams are filled with work, and i wake up before my alarm every day.  i didn't even bother to set an alarm for over a week and i was still the first one in the office.

so two options exist.  i can capitulate to external forces - admit defeat and limp through to the end of this busy time of year.  or i can let this grow me, let this time relocate a few hairs from my head to my chest.  after a dream summer of ease, comfort, and pleasure i have been dangerously close to choosing option one.  anyway, i'm of the opinion that my job does next to nothing to benefit the common good. so why bust my rump then?

last week, however, was a turning point.  i was able to step away from the job for a few days.  in that time i decided i wanted to grow up.  i want to stare this challenge in the face and have dominion over it.  not only that, i want to hold in all the sarcasm and complaints that are ever-present on the tip of my tongue during hard times (maybe the biggest challenge).  i want to be seen as the guy the put his head down and got the work done, smiled the whole time, and was there to build everyone else up.  i know i'll fail at certain aspects of this, but now my perspective is at least respectful.

that said, you won't see much of me over the next three months.  i'll be in the office fulfilling my duties.  going into my 6th busy season for an SEC client, i know that ill become an involuntary recluse.  sorry for that.  its the job i promise. i'll miss everyone dearly.