ive had a general sense of discontentment over the past couple weeks. if you were to track my everyday life, you wouldn't say much has changed over the same period. i'm still pretty much the same amount of active as i always am. i still see the same people. i still work the same job. its odd. why am i feeling this way?
for some reason, the feeling has been pretty pronounced today. it has me wanting some wholesale change in my life. i think the desire for change is a knee jerk reaction, but its still pretty tempting. i mean im considering applying for jobs in all kinds of crazy places. its stuff i probably shouldn't do right now.
anyway, i'm fine with living in a feeling for a while. i think its healthy. it leads to good change. it leads to some honest introspection. after a bit, you have to figure out what is driving the feeling so you can react in an appropriate instead of the impetuous, hasty way. so i've sat down to try to figure out what's driving my funk.
heres the list of things i can think of. broad category - specific thing that could be leading to discontentment.
1. lady - there's this one i cant seem to get over
2. friends - maybe not this category actually
3. family - they are too far away
4. church - lack of community at my life stage
5. work - well, the whole job really
so the task now is to ponder these things figure this situation out, and then make the right changes. not change for the sake of change, intentional change to live a better life.
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