Brother Lawrence

I started reading brother Lawrence's the practice of the presence of god this morning. In the first part of the conversations he talks often about everything becoming easy because he includes a dialog with god in all tasks. I love this idea, but find I am terrible at applying it. Looking back on the last 5 months or so I've made such little effort to bring god into my work. It makes me wonder how differently busy season would have gone had I maintained a running dialog with god. I don't know that the hours would have gotten any shorter or the work any easier, but I'm certain that I would have mentally handled the situation much better. My goal at the onset of the year was calm and collected reactions to stress. I'd say I started well in this pursuit but have gradually become worse and worse over the months. My mind is tired but that is no excuse. Perhaps the mental exhaustion is completely avoidable with some strength that is not my own? I look forward to my space over the coming months to reflect and to draw near to god once again. I'm thankful he is forgiving and always happy to have me back, because I'm no good at this relationship with him.